Day 35 of agony
5:38 AM Sunday, January 04, 2009
the name on the skin, the slits on the wrist. i'm so naive!
watched the movie australia last night at the cathay. buying a ticket without knowing how long is the show duration, what's the show about and etc. initially i wanted to watch the 7.30pm session and i rushed to bath and then went down straight, but the usual unlucky me still missed that session the moment i reached cause this fucking taxi driver aggressively refused to give way to me and made me almost got hit by another car. he himself wanted to turn left but yet wasn't in the correct lane. you're lucky to have stopped when the lights turn red. if i were to have stopped right beside you i'll scratch your cab for sure cause you not just only made me almost got involve in an accident, you even made me kanna additional 2 erps for nothing, fucker!
shall continue on the part after that fucktard cabbie. i missed the earlier timing for the earlier showcase so i bought the next session at 9.30pm. the 2hours before the show start, went walking around killing time and lastly i settled down at macdonald house's long john. while slurping on my coke and munchy on my fries, i realised the last time i ate in this branch was with you while you're studying for your class test. not just that, the table and chair i sat on was also the same. again i'm emo-ing, fuck! the movie duration was about 2hrs 45mins and i slept for almost 30mins in the middle part of the show. wondered did i snore anot because the uncle besides me seems enthu throughout the entire show, so i hope i didn't snore or did anything that irritates him. after the show at about 12.45am, went over to cine outside for a smoke while thinking where i should go next. saw one of my bmt kaki and have a few words with him after so long never seen each other except the last time when we pop.
it seems like i'm real stupid now. everything seems clearer to me and now i know a leopard will never change its spots.
paehc os kool uoy sekam ti.
pains are brought deeper to me. why everyone can live their life happily but not me.? why is it when i finally thought i become the happiest guy just like others and yet my life and fate changes again? how badly it hurts seeing other couples outside being so loving and yet i can't have a love like them. you'll never know!
