Day 43 of agony
8:31 AM Monday, January 12, 2009
after attending the wake on friday night, went to watch red cliff at 2.30am till almost 5am. after the show, went over to geylang for beancurd and then back home. was already 7am when i reached home.
yesterday went to watch transporter 3 at 12am midnight till 2am plus. after the show, went over to henderson wave just to slack. felt real emo deep inside when i recalled the time we first started and the first time i held her hand there. hais.. what's the point of me still feeling so badly hurt and sad over it whereby people already clean forgotten it and ready to start afresh as a brand new single party with so many guys dating and waiting ahead. i'm already being left so far behind, but why am i still being this fucking way i am. i've been try hard telling myself all this everyday but i just couldn't accept it or change the way i am. it's just so suffering. i may laugh and smile at times, but no ones know exactly how painful is it that i'm feeling inside and facing it all alone. it hurts so badly!
shall see whether any movie to catch later since i can't think of anything that can keep me occupied for the time being. where shall i go?
argh~ still feeling sick and the bad flu just irritates me so much.
The sound of your voice is the music to my ear.So soft, sweet, and clear.The kiss from your lips words cannot be explain.cause it takes away my worries and my pain in the beginning.all this cannot be felt anymore, except only to be dream of.
